Well, todays zero to hero challenge is to write a post that builds on a comment we left yesterday. So I’ll choose the comment I left on redstuffdan‘s post. I really think his art is amazing. The pictures that he posts are really one of a kind. Whenever I get on I check to see what kinds of pics he has posted. I recommend if you are an art person or even if you’re not and just looking for something to do to go to his page and get drawn to his wonderful artwork.
Check it out. It’ll be worth your time.
So this is a DJ Snake/Lil Jon song so if you’re not much of a rap person Id say don’t continue however its more of a beat than a song at all so maybe that would change your view. I don’t really know what to describe it as…. it falls under the dance genre but if you don’t like dubstep, rap, techno, idk and similar music then this is not the video for you lol. So why am I posting this? Well todays zero to hero challenge involved a new element. I have not posted a video yet so I figured why not. I just think its a catchy beat and definitely fun to dance to. So that’s all for now.
Day 3: What’s on your mind?
So todays zero to hero challenge is to write what was on my mind when I decided to blog. This is a hard one for me. I’ve been thinking, wondering if this post was really worth making. In fact I talked about it in my first post but I don’t think it was up long enough for anyone to read it. I deleted it because I wasn’t sure afterwards if I wanted everyone to see that deep into my life. Maybe its time to open the vault and leave it open this time. Deep breath…. After reading the challenge I’m taking this post for what it is…. a challenge. So here goes nothing. Wow, getting pretty nervous! Feels like my first school play all over again lol.
Okay, where to begin. Lets start here. I love my mom to death, but she is probably 65% of my worrying. She worries a lot which in turn causes me to worry even more. Especially when she worries about me. She comes up with these crazy scenarios and thinks that they will or have happened. For instance….
I help my dad with his job generally Fridays to Sundays. Just a little of a background he goes to gun shows and we sell ammunition. Some weekends the show starts on a Friday so I have to leave Thursday. Well there was a show that this happened. I told my mom about it and she knew I was leaving. So she called me Friday morning and started yelling at me cause I told her I was at my dads house and not at the show. So when I got annoyed after she told me I told her something different naturally I was depressed right? False. The whole situation led to her talking to my dad and asking him if he did something and why I was sounding depressed. I talked to her the next day and she got in an argument/fight with her husband and that got really bad. In this situation I wasn’t blamed for her argument/fight situation but there have been many others similar to it that she blamed me for their fights.
So it is moments like this that stress me out to the maximum. I’m told not to worry about it but how can I ignore something like that? That isn’t even the full story, there were words exchanged that I’d rather not go into detail about. Gaaaaahhh some days she drives me insane. I know its normal for mothers to over react at times but I’m not sure her reactions are normal at all. They generally have a false reasoning behind them anyway. Even though she says she trusts me, when I tell her things, she asks me again and again as if she didn’t believe the first, second, or third time I answered. There are so many words that we’ve said to each other in arguments that I wish could be erased but I know there’s no way for that to happen. We have sort of a broken relationship now. Where I used to feel I could tell my mom everything, I don’t feel that way anymore. I don’t even live with her anymore but the drama that was always there continues. I dread going over there because I know there will be something she will be complaining and worrying about, but I can’t not go see her. Then that would make me a bad daughter and a bad sister. I don’t even know anymore what to do with the whole situation.
Wow…. that’s my rant. I can’t believe I’m about to post this. To anyone who reads this sorry about how long it is. Oh and just a side note to anyone who notices the small details, when I use the ellipses I use four dots instead of three because I have a problem with odd numbers. Just a fun little fact that you know about me now! Welp, until next time.
I had no idea how I was going to begin this journey so I’m glad to see the Zero to Hero challenge. Okay so about me.
Well, I am not new to blogging, but I never actually completely figured it out. I grew to liking other bloggers and reading what they had to say, but not really figuring out what it was I wanted to say myself. My thoughts venture so much that it seemed impossible for me to sit down and actually write something with much meaning. For a while it was just a place to track my days but one thing lead to another and I pulled away from it all together. I realized that even though I had no idea what I was doing, it was something that I kind of liked. It was different and I like different. So here I am. New blog, new mood, ready to try this thing out again and hopefully catch on this time.
What it is I want to write about…. honestly I’m not sure yet. I love poetry so I could get off into that. I’m a psychology major so maybe I could talk about the interesting things I find through that whole experience (already a few things I find incredible). I’m a very random person so maybe I might have a different topic everyday. I’m not sure. I’m hoping that through this challenge I am able to figure something out and run with it. In the end I want it to be the place I can express myself and not feel as though they are misplaced. This blog is a place I want my true feelings to show and let people see who I really am. So here goes nothing! The start of a new adventure and hopefully some of you would like to join me down whatever path it may be that this blog takes me.