Minor Set Back

So, I didn’t get a chance to post yesterday. Had a soccer game and demolished my ankle saving my keeper from having to make a 6000th save by sticking my foot out to stop a guy from taking a shot with 20sec left in the game. He didn’t get his shot off, so minus the instant pain that came I was satisfied with the outcome and we ended up winning 1-0 to go to semifinals. I obviously couldn’t play but we did good in that game until the end we sort of ran out of gas. Could not walk on it much after the game yesterday and today when I woke up it was even worse with excruciating pain. Decided I needed to get checked out in fear it was broken so went to the walk in orthopedic clinic this morning. Lucky me it’s just a bad sprain. In a boot for the time being and no soccer for at least 2 weeks. That’s going to be torture but I’ll be alright haha. This is not what I had planned to talk about today, but the pain really has my mind off track. I will get back to my planned schedule tomorrow.

In the future Tuesdays will be anything that comes to mind , so guess it’ll just be my random day and Wednesdays will be dedicated to psychology topics. I dream of becoming a sports psychologist so many of the topics will probably focus on that.

Anyway, I just felt I needed to put some kind of post up today. I’ve lost my everyday this year goal but life happens and if I only miss a few days out of the whole year, that will still be a major accomplishment for me. Have a great night or day everyone and be safe.

WTF USA

Can I just go out and say WHAT THE FUCK USA!!!!!!!!!!!! They had the game won and with seconds left let Portugal go and score the freaking equalizer…. WE WERE THROUGH TO THE KNOCKOUT STAGE!!!! THE OTHER GAMES WERENT A BIG DEAL…. well damn…. my heart broke when they scored gaaaaaaaahhh. Oh well now that I’m done with that few seconds of ranting, they’ll be okay. 

So I started coaching the little ones last week and they are a blast! I don’t always want to go but once I get there everything flows smooth lol well at least for the most part. 2-3 year olds get a little rowdy at times lol but so do the 3-4, 6-8 and 8-10 yr olds. It doesn’t help on the days that I have sessions in the morning since I already get up at 5 for workouts. Let me tell you about these past few days though oh my goodness I’ve had a rough one…

Wednesday I took my gma to the hospital and found out another friend was in the hospital, then I lost my keys and thank goodness I found them because I threw them in the trash outside and the next day was trash day….

Thursday I lost my name tag(which could have gotten me written up if I hadn’t found it), found out my cousins brother was in the hospital, found out I had a cousin on life support (breathing on his own now).

Friday I was able to pick my gma up from the hospital but she called me at like 1 I didn’t get her message until 4, I was so tired I didn’t even hear my phone ring.

Saturday I slept until 2 and have had a migraine ever since. I’m probably going to call the doctor tomorrow because it is something I constantly struggle with.

Today I had fitness testing. I didn’t pass any of the tests. It was a practice but what was frustrating was on the second test I failed it by a second…. A FREAKING SECOND!!!! Oh and not to mention I left the windows open in my truck last night my seats are all wet…. 

But I am alive and breathing and I am thankful for that. May have been a rough few days but I’m counting on a better tomorrow so I still have a reason to smile. 🙂 

If you haven’t done so please smile…. like now, I’m waiting!!!!

Have a great day…. or night!! Which ever lol 

A little update

This sporadic posting thing is kind of not cool. Im seriously working on getting on a schedule set. Anyway, hello!! How is your day?

Quick talk of my weekend: Ive been out of town since Thursday and just getting back home this morning. The longest, slowest weekend I’ve had in a long time. Probably the slowest gun show I’ve been to. The fact that my dad decided it a great idea to get into selling ammo sucks sometimes because carrying in 10,000lbs of ammo gets really tiring and the system we have as of now is probably the worse well minus carrying one case at a time. That would be the death of me. Especially since this is a near every weekend thing. Despite my complaining, I enjoy spending the time with my dad and on top of that I get paid so it’s not that bad in the end.

Today starts my push towards getting ready for my soccer season. I am so excited for this season coming up. We have been so close and this year could be the year that we do big things. Im a little nervous about our workouts. My coach has been excited about crossfit and I’ve only heard and suffered bad effects from it. I know there are a lot of lovers of crossfit but honestly, I think it’s dangerous and not worth the risk. Plus the crossfit trainers don’t have the education that other exercise coaches/trainers have. But, that’s all I have to say about that. 

I’ve been working a lot on my poetry lately and probably will be posting a few poems here soon. I just wanted to get something on here though. I’ve been peeking in on other posts but as for me actually posting myself, Ive not been keeping up. This is going to get fixed. Preferably sooner than later. 

Have a great day!!!! Smile at someone today. You might just make their day.

Gosh darn life!!!!

First and foremost I would like to say help!!!

I have not been on in a while. Quite depressing but I’m back. Had a lot going on starting last Friday and driving all the way up to now. If you don’t want to hear about the current struggles I am facing then I invite you to click away now cause it starts in

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Okay so lets start with Friday. I left for a gun show and while setting up I got a call from my mom that our cousin had passed away. It wasn’t sudden she had been having many problems with seizures and strokes and after having more than multiple strokes and just wasn’t able to hold on any longer. She was really close to us so that was hard news to take.

Then comes the part when I can actually smile and say something good has happened. During this show I got to spend some time with a guy I like and we’ve gotten a lot closer since then. Thankfully he is helping me through the slump right now and has been very understanding so that is amazing.

Sunday night I was walking around in the dark and noticed that I was not seeing correctly so after about 5 minutes of trying to figure out why I felt so weird and why I couldn’t see right I realized that my vision blurs out on the left side. The strange thing is this only happens in the dark. I wasn’t concerned at first but it keeps happening so now Im getting a little worried. So if anyone knows of anything this could be that be great. If not, my dad is forcing me to go see a doctor which leads me to my next part.

Monday my gma wanted to go to the store so as we were going I lost power steering and my battery light starting dinging at me so I took it to a shop which then they told me that I have multiple wears in my van and bolts lose that are making my belt pop off which obviously is not good but making it worse to do the repairs they said I needed I would have to be rich…. lol I am hoping I can just buy the parts I need and have someone do it, no worries the place that would do it knows what they are doing they just require buying the parts yourself. But I was told that  it would cut down on the cost possibly more than half. So good news in a flood of misery.

Tuesday I had soccer training and by the end of it breathing was so hard I couldn’t move for a while. Now I would go out and say that it’s just because I’m not in as good of shape as I was earlier but that’s false and I was breathing fine at practice this morning. The problem has only been occurring when I’m in cold air so my trainer recommending having my doctor check it out.

Might as well continue into yesterday. It was actually not a bad day but one of the girls on my team was in a car accident and that was pretty bad. She’s already been having problems and now after the accident she’s in even more pain than before so I’m a little concerned about her. She’s doing okay but you can tell that she is in a lot of pain.

Today I had practice super early, woke up at 5 this morning. No problem though. Once I took my shower I was wide awake. During the workout I felt something not right with my arm and for the majority of the day it has been bothering me so I went to the trainer and she said I did something to something to my tricep, which I guess according to her is really hard to do so that sucks. I can’t put much weight on it. Holding my head on my hand is out of the question and I can’t lift my arm over my head or even bend it without pain so that’s just awesome.

Then later today my card was declined and when I checked out my account realized that I had forgot to cancel a subscription that I don’t want anymore. What’s terrible about this is I needed the money that they took from my account to pay for my meds, my car, doc apptment, and soccer stuff. I sent them an email hoping that they will be understanding, which so far dealing with them they have been so hopefully they can help me out. Adding to soccer, I have practice in the morning and now my gma is upset because she swears I didn’t tell her I  couldn’t take her to work in the morning. I thought I told her but my memory is bad so she could very well be right. I feel bad but she said she has some personal days that she needs to use so I guess that’ll be fine.

So that leads up to now. After the most eventful week I’ve had in a long time I actually have time to relax and enjoy releasing some of my frustration. Just putting all this out here doesn’t not solve much but it definitely just relaxed me a bit more.  

I guess the way I see these events is that things could be worse…. it’s hard to see it sometimes but it’s true. There’s someone out there with problems that would make mine seem miniscule. Everything that has been going on definitely have me super stressed and when you add school work on top of that it adds to my anxiety. I just feel like punching a wall right now. Probably would mess up my arm even more but man it’s so tempting looking on everything going on. I might be at a rough spot right now but I’ll get through it. Stuff happens but we gotta keep going right. Life is a crazy ride but it’s one worth getting on. The typing is starting to get to me and is making my arm really sore so I guess I shall hit publish post and be done for the night.

See you soon. I will have free time now that I have a free weekend to get caught up on everything, thank goodness!!

A Visit to the Doctor’s Office (Part 2)

The doctor walked in with his clipboard and gave me a looked that assured me something wasn’t right. He asked:

“Would you like the good news or the bad news first.”

Oh no there it was I knew for sure whatever he had to say, I was not going to want to hear it. I was so scared to hear anything but eventually told him that he could choose. He looked at his clipboard then back and me smiled and said:

“Good news, you didn’t tear your meniscus, but….”

WHAT THE HECK!!!! Could he make my life any more difficult. He must have been amused by the agony he was giving me in not just telling me straight out. Maybe I should have said just give me the bad news and spare me the good. He smiled and I knew at this point that he was in fact enjoying my anticipation. Finally he continued:

“your MRI showed that your iliotibial band is really inflamed and that can mimic a tear in  the meniscus which is why you are in so much pain.”

My what?? After he explained this to me, he then told me that it would not sideline me and that I could do as much as the pain would allow me to do. I was prescribed meds to get rid of the inflammation and released to practice. After all of that I was relieved to know that it wasn’t as serious as it could have been. It still gives me problems today but I still laugh at how nervous I was to hear the doctors results.  🙂 

This was the end of my story for the weekly writing challenge.

 

A Visit to the Doctor’s Office

The pain had been nagging at me since the second week of practice. Every step in my stride brought the sharpest pains through my knee. I could barely stand it. Literally. I’d been playing soccer for five years by this time and up until this point I had never been in so much pain. The closest thing to it was when I pulled my quad the year before but even that didn’t even closely resemble the pain I was in. In high school I was known for hiding pains I had, however this one I couldn’t hide. I went and talked to the trainer and she spent a few days trying to help the problem with ultrasound therapies, ice, stretching and strengthening, but eventually decided it was best for me to go see a doctor. Doctors scare the crap out of me and believe me I have a legit reason (….you don’t want to know lol). So the appointment was set and I awaited the day. When it came I saw the doctor and he took a few x-rays and could not find anything from just the regular exam but was concerned I may have torn my meniscus so he ordered an MRI. I got the MRI which was terrible. Have you ever been in one of those machines? I mean its seriously torcher. I can’t sit still as it is but having a nurse tell me that I have to lie there and not move at all…. let me tell you, I was not a happy camper at all. Nevertheless I lied there still and stared at a dot on the machine for about 15 terribly long minutes. After this was the wait for the results. So I waited…. and waited. It seems like when you are anxious to know a result is when the wait feels like years away.

Finally it was the day. I got in the car, shut the door, and made the drive to the docs office. Nervously I pounded on the steering wheel to the music wondering what the doctor would say. When I arrived, I got out the car, took a deep breathe, and walked in. The nurse called my name and led me to a room. This may have been the longest walk of my life. Have you ever looked at a hallway and dreaded the fact that you had to go all the way to the other side? That’s how I felt. (Granted I actually was put in the 2nd room in the hallway. But it took a long while to get to that hall). I sat in the room, the nurse told me the doctor would be in with me shortly and I began to watch the clock. Bad idea. Minutes went by but they felt like hours. My heart nearly ripped from my chest every time I heard footsteps. Whispers were now at the door and I could barely sit in my chair I was so nervous. The door opened and my hear stopped.

To be continued….

Well, I’m not the best story teller but this is my shot at the cliffhanger for the weekly writing challenge. Keep checking back for the end to the story.